487

               ...That's the number of Friends on my Facebook Account.
 Amazing as it may seem to me ...barring maybe 5 to 6 of them I have met almost all the rest personally atleast once in my life.

              "It's the ones you can call up at 4:00 a.m. that really matter."-- Marlene Dietrich 

              While coming home from mass one of my Friends N , Fr Henry and I shared a Rickshaw.........N was talking about how he doesn't believe in the whole Friends- are- your- world and You- must- Sacrifice- everything- for- your friends quotes that he reads around. So Fr Henry Pestered him to tell him why .. N reveled that he had a really bad experience with a group of people he used to call his friends ........This has left him bitter and he takes long to trust people now. I know quite a few people like that.

 "Life is partly what we make it, and partly what it is made by the friends whom we choose." -- Tehyi Hsieh

I don't know whether I was wise or whether I am plain Lucky ...
But Karen, Bee, Sabi, Cheryl, Priya, Esperta,Virgin I'm privileged to have found friends in amazing people like you'll.

I sit Quietly By
As tears Drop you don't ask me why.
You sit patiently by my side,
Telling me to take Everything in my stride.

From You I have no places no Faces to hide.

You remind me of who I am,
Of what Ive done and Still Can.

Crazy isn't Crazy enough for you,
I'm surprised you're not gone Crazy too!

You're a Purposeful Part of My God's Mighty plan I can See.
Handcrafted, Trademarked and Specially sent for Me!

Blessed is the day we met..
The day A bond was forged
So strong
It hasn't gone weak yet!

A Bond that's a privileged to only a Few ....
And So your not only my Friend but my Family too!
--Zena

I sent this to my closest Friends last year ! One of them sent it back just as I was thinking about it!
This is for you guys!

Whether its to give me advice, correct my spelling mistakes, bring me back down to reality, tell me I have bad breath, listen to me rant about 'The One', Bake a Cake, rave about Harry Potter! watch a Movie or just to talk or hold the line while I regain my composure and say "I wasn't crying" ............ You guys have been there !

And I feel Blessed knowing you'll!


                           Happy Fraaandships Day! ;)

Defying Gravity!

I love watching Glee !!!
Its still in its First season In India .....
Its a delightful programe and I like the songs they use, most of which I hear for the first time and take an immediate liking to.
This particular one has been playing over and over in my head.
Its one of the Tracks from the Broadway Musical  "Wicked"
The Broadway is adapted form the novel by Gregory Maguire entitled
"Wicked: The life and times of the wicked witch of the west"
The name of the song is 'Defying Gravity' it speaks about believeing in your self, taking a leap of faith and taking action!

                                                        Defying Gravity

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes... and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!


I'm through accepting limits
'cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

                     This is the Glee Cast version of the song sung by Lea Michele and Chris Colfer who play Rachel Berry and Kurt Hummel respectively on the show.
Its a Lovely and Inspiring number hope you like it!

What 50% did to me !

50 Percent!
50 Percent!!!!
Wow !!!
I never expected this.
I know I should have expected it considering all the effort I put in my studies, but I never had to study much to land good marks it was always easy for me....
But 50 percent!
Now If I was Living alone with no living witness to my existence I would be able to digest this, I would have ignored it .....Said to myself it doesn't Matter ............
How ever those outside echo what I feel within ....
"I could have done better !"

                 I guess not doing too well in my academics made me realise(what my close ones were telling me all along was true) that I actually have the capacity and am not using it, or maybe it has made me ashamed and made me strive for more.
                 Whatever it is that 50 percent along with "second class" has Woken me up!
                 Its funny And I don't know how it Happened but now I KNOW that I can do better ..
Its like Been kicked off from bed when your having a dream of flying!
I have Landed head first on the ground ..
 and my head on the ground is what I need.,

I never considered Life After College, never thought seriously about it, but now I'm less on Face book more on Google.. looking up Colleges Job Profiles loading myself with information ........I have never been this concerned and this participative I'm  my life ...I am normally the Passive types I'd rather wait for things to fall in my lap....
Actually that's what I was doing the entire holidays .....
Looking to the heavens and waiting for some divine intervention ...some Giant hand to point the way ........

Nothing Happened ..

I guess the 50 percent along with a combination of events has jogged me back to the reality that my life will be what I want it to be and I cant take everything for granted.

The 50 percent has jogged me out of my complacence.
In a Funny way it has instilled me confidence ..
I know everything will be okay ..
I have been brought down to reality and m being level headed and feel the responsibility of my decisions.
I have also learnt some Humility .....my parents were right after all ....I have to admit that ........

Well the 50 percent is a life changing experience brought on by my own carelesness and I needed it ......
And ........
Im Glad it happened....

Reality Check :)

“Perhaps it is not accurate, realistic thinking that keeps people from being depressed but, rather, hope and optimism."- Susan Nolen-Hoeksema.




                           I got this from the chapter on Mood disorders in my Abnormal Psychology Text book....Interestingly this comment was preceded by arguments that people prone to Depression and Depressed people view the world negatively and have a hopeless cognitive style ......

                           The argument takes a turn with this line "Is it possible that depressed people are not distorted in their negative views of the world but are actually seeing the world for the terrible place it is ?" It then goes on to talk about a phenomenon called Depressive Realism that is, it was found that when asked to make judgments about how much control they have over situations that are actually uncontrollable, depressed people were found to be quite accurate. Non depressed people on the other hand were found to have "robust illusions" that they can control all sorts of situations that were actually out of their control and that they have superior skills compared to other people. In the end this statement was made "Research on illusion of control calls into question the notion that depression results from unrealistic beliefs that one cannot control one's environment or form negative errors in thinking about ones self and the world."

                           In other words once they compared the illusions of control between depressed and non depressed people they found out that the people actually having unrealistic beliefs were those who thought that they CAN control their environment and those who have a positive view about themselves and the world, and hence the above statement made by Susan Nolen.

                           I want to share this as I found it quite ironic...... I always consider being accurate and realistic as "good" traits and our elders keep telling us to, "stop floating in the clouds and come back to reality".

                           In this context I think I was a victim to accurate and realistic thinking......after giving it due consideration and experimenting with it I find now ................. It gets me nowhere.

                           And the next time you think about telling someone to get a "Reality Check" ... Think twice will U ... I know I will .:)