Wednesday, March 2, 2016

The inevitable shift

Looking down upon myself,
I don't always like what I see.

Painful thoughts, Guarded lies,
That maintain the darkness surrounding me.

Demonic eyes that flash through,
 As they X-ray my hesitant soul.
I feel an earthquake deep inside,
Jolting foundations of structures old.

Pristinely they towered away,
Inspiring in me most awe, 
Now they lay waste these structures of clay,
As the earth beneath  them begins to thaw. 

Buried deep within it now I see ....
All those eyes, a part of me.
My guilt, my shame, my envy, pride;
The lust and jealousy I want to hide.

My hurt, my pain I dare to feel,
My humanness as they reveal.


I see it clearly but don't want to admit,
The colours fade out bit by bit,
 Revealing the deep deep parts of grey
As fond old colours are washed away.

My sullen face seems to pretend 
To find its peace as it faces the end 
Of childish dreams that the adult thwarts, 
Of ridiculous hopes left to rot: 
Deep in the grave where the tears dry.

To the weary soul, the naive li'l heart confides.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

How Scared?

Zena:       U know what ....M actually scared for my future
   N its not even funny now
               M scared like watching exorcism scared. 

Runcil:     nice day u chose to watch that.’

 Zena:   No I'm not watching it! I'm describing how scared I am
            I hardly watched exorcist, closed my eyes n ears for half the movie!

 (Somewhere in 2010)

Establishing Ties

       This is a snippet of the exchange that takes place between the Little prince and the Fox in Antoine de Saint-ExupĂ©ry's  "The Little Prince" . I personally like this part, there is wisdom in it as well as innocence in the way it is portrayed is an edited version...

  "No," said the little prince. "I am looking for friends. What does that mean--'tame'?"

"It is an act too often neglected," said the fox. It means to establish ties."

"'To establish ties'?"

"Just that," said the fox. "To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you, I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world . . ."

 "My life is very monotonous," the fox said. "I hunt chickens; men hunt me. All the chickens are just alike, and all the men are just alike. And, in consequence, I am a little bored. But if you tame me, it will be as if the sun came to shine on my life. I shall know the sound of a step that will be different from all the others. Other steps send me hurrying back underneath the ground. Yours will call me, like music, out of my burrow. And then look: you see the grain-fields down yonder? The wheat fields have nothing to say to me. And that is sad. But you have hair that is the color of gold. Think how wonderful that will be when you have tamed me! The grain, which is also golden, will bring me back the thought of you. And I shall love to listen to the wind in the wheat . . ." 

"Please--tame me!" he said. 

"I want to, very much," the little prince replied. "But I have not much time. I have friends to discover, and a great many things to understand." 

"One only understands the things that one tames," said the fox.

"Men have no more time to understand anything. They buy things all ready made at the shops. But there is no shop anywhere where one can buy friendship, and so men have no friends any more. If you want a friend, tame me . . ."

"What must I do, to tame you?" asked the little prince. 

"You must be very patient, first you will sit down at a little distance from me--like that--in the grass. I shall look at you out of the corner of my eye, and you will say nothing. Words are the source of misunderstandings. But you will sit a little closer to me, every day . . ." 

The next day the little prince came back. 

"It would have been better to come back at the same hour," said the fox. "If, for example, you come at four o'clock in the afternoon, then at three o'clock I shall begin to be happy. I shall feel happier and happier as the hour advances. At four o'clock, I shall already be worrying and jumping about. I shall show you how happy I am! But if you come at just any time, I shall never know at what hour my heart is to be ready to greet you . . . One must observe the proper rites . . ." 

"What is a rite?" asked the little prince. 

"Those also are actions too often neglected," said the fox. "They are what make one day different from other days, one hour from other hours."

So the little prince tamed the fox. And when the hour of his departure drew near--

"Ah," said the fox, "I shall cry."

"It is your own fault," said the little prince. "I never wished you any sort of harm; but you wanted me to tame you . . ."

"Yes, that is so," said the fox.

"But now you are going to cry!" said the little prince.

"Yes, that is so," said the fox.

"Then it has done you no good at all!"

"It has done me good," said the fox, "because of the color of the wheat fields." 

 "Go and look again at the roses. You will understand now that yours is unique in all the world"

The little prince went away, to look again at the roses. 

"You are not at all like my rose," he said. "As yet you are nothing. No one has tamed you, and you have tamed no one. You are like my fox when I first knew him. He was only a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But I have made him my friend, and now he is unique in all the world." 

"It is the time you have wasted for your rose that makes your rose so important." 

"It is the time I have wasted for my rose--" said the little prince, so that he would be sure to remember. 

"Men have forgotten this truth," said the fox. "But you must not forget it. You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. You are responsible for your rose . . ." 

"I am responsible for my rose," the little prince repeated, so that he would be sure to remember.

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Justice Sunday!

If great thoughts and sensible words were enough I could have changed the world by now........

Monday, July 30, 2012

Through Heaven's eyes

I love watching Disney Movies and I personally think they have a lot to teach us....
They are generally positive and never fail to remind us of some of the values we need to hold..

'Through Heaven's Eyes' is a song form the animated movie "The Prince of Egypt".
Here are the lyrics in case you find it difficult to follow the words in the song...Watch the video!
A single thread in a tapestry
Through its color brightly shine
Can never see its purpose
In the pattern of the grand design

And the stone that sits on the very top
Of the mountains mighty face
Does it think its more important
Than the stones that form the base?

So how can you see what your life is worth
Or where your value lies?
You can never see through the eyes of man
You must look at your life

Look at your life through heavens eyes

A lake of gold in the desert sand
Is less than a cool fresh spring
And to one lost sheep, a shepherd boy
Is greater than the richest king
If a man lose everything he owns
Has he truly lost his worth?
Or is it the beginning
Of a new and brighter birth?

So how do you measure the worth of a man
In wealth or strength or size?
In how much he gained or how much he gave?
The answer will come
The answer will come to him who tries
To look at his life through heavens eyes

And thats why we share all we have with you
Though theres little to be found
When all you've got is nothing
Theres a lot to go around

No life can escape being blown about
By the winds of change and chance
And though you never know all the steps
You must learn to join the dance
You must learn to join the dance

So how do you judge what a man is worth
By what he builds or buys?
You can never see with your eyes on earth
Look through heavens eyes
Look at your life
Look at your life
Look at your life through heaven's eyes

Sunday, July 29, 2012

The Divine Intervention....

In Summary....
I was dead hungry, sitting in the computer room doing some reading during our "five minute" break, had a thought the girls may order for sandwiches, and I'd go and order one, but alas  my computer would be occupied if I did get up.....
A fleeting thought passed my mind, "Lord let him bring an extra Saada(plain) Sandwich".
Tummy rumbled.....
Received a message that class started.
Enter class.(Look around for Sandwiches)
No sandwiches.
"They must have not placed an order!",
I  wouldn't have to watch the others eat as my tummy rumbled with regret.
Then as though waiting for his cue....
Enter Sandwich walla!
I slump...
My mind goes "Ooooooohhhhhhhh crap!!"
"Please let him have an extra one God! please!"
 "How will one materialize now stupid!", said my well intentioned mind.

Sandwich walla helps student distribute sandwich,
"Bina Kaanda"(No onions),
"Kam thika" (less spicy),
 "Toast" (Toast),
OUCH ... Tummy rumbled.......

When suddenly,
"Who ordered for another Saada?"
I looked around, hoping no one raised their hand.
My classmate called out again,
No one raised their hand,
promptly my hand goes up,
"Ill buy that!!"

"One Sandwich Miracle coming right up!"

Thanks God!!! :*

Please make haste and send my I- pad now ;) :D